miércoles, 4 de agosto de 2010

i dont want to.... you push me to...

I didnt search for an option, i didnt even consider to have to search for an option...
yet you ask me to......
I drove 3 hours today....and the smell of mangoes sent me far away...sent me back where it all started... sent me back to what i have tried to erase...
and then an email in my inbox lights up my face.. you dont know, you will never know it... it will break you, you wouldnt understand...
yes.... YOU... wouldnt understand what is like to have a bond...and emotional bond with someone.... to have been away from that person and still feeling closer than ever.... you wont understand if i tell you how important is for me to talk to that person.... how much pain, tears, laughs, joy and hugs i have spent with that person... how it `cant be erased so easily......
You wont understand cause you dont know and will never experience that level of bonding.....

i ve been through your past... and aint that different from our present.... you dont believe in changing... you dont believe in staying....

and i, my darling, believe in living with the person i cant live without......