all of the sudden all my boys problems seem shallow and ridiculous... extremely stupid i must say.. when the man i adore the most in this world is ill... my dad that is... had been disgnosied with cancer 2 years ago, had gone through 2 3 surgeries already and 2 therapies.. and last night we found out that he needs another theraphy cause the bloody cancer wont leave him... another theraphie that his heart might not accept... another chance to lose him forever.. and it tears me apart... on my way to work today tears just kept flowing..the pain is umbearable... i miss him already...
im afraid, very afraid... how am i supposed to handle it without him? life wuldnt be the same.. fcuk!!!!!!!!!!
