Today is the day when I decided 2 change

Ok, today i woke up, with various determinations:

1. I will stop smoking
2. I will start again writing my book
3. I will start eating good food, no more junk food
4. I will start using my excercise machina
5. I will get back on my daily yoga routine
6. I will be positive
7. I will learn to smile again

Ok, maybe im setting myself a few too many goals... but is like the great sleeping weekend i had (sleep therapy, self induced, no drugs (i.e. Cataflam, Tylenol, etc.) nor alcohol included) , and i woke up new!

It is time i let go of the past, for good.... i need to pick myself up, decide where i want to go and what i want to do... Is time to look at this life like it is: momentaneous... doesnt last too long , so i gotta grab it and live it while i can....

I ve stopped smoking, in my own terms, because i keep having weird dreams that i ll die of cancer or stuff related..in the weekend the few cigarrettes i had i did not finish, cause this terrible feeling came to me, every time i had a drag, i would feel like i was punishing my body.... so... this mornign i started smoke free!!! i know i ll be cranky for a while, but eventually i ll b fine :)

Since June 2005 my life has been hell, literally...nothing went well... i changed cause all the fucked up things that happened, fucked me up (sorry for my french ppl).... and i think it is about time i let go of all the angriness i have, and all the bitterness my past brought me... i was a happy person, i had the perfect life.... and im glad for that, but i want it back, and none can rescue me from myself, none..but me...