Regret/Miss

I dont regret leaving,

I miss going back,

I dont regret getting married,

I miss being free,

I dont regret embracing the sun, and the constant heat,

I miss enjoying the wind breaking my skin,

I dont regret growing up,

I miss being childish,

I dont regret the healty meal,

I miss a good old fashioned full english breakfast,

I dont regret saying goodbye,

I miss saying hello......

So much has changed....So much has being said and done, roads have been taken, and suddenly you realize, that you no longer are 20, and you have your whole life ahead of you, but you are almost 30, with a husband, a mortgage and all the responsabilities that come with it, and you have already decided what your life is gonna be like....

Would have i done something different??? From 2001 to 2005 i wouldnt change a bit, NOTHING, my life was perfect.... I enjoyed, i loved it.... I lived, i made mistakes (which is normal once you throw yourself at life), i didnt say NO (suddenly, now, thats all i say), I went to clubs, i danced my ass off, i drank, i smoked, i tried everything, but thats not the most important part, I had TOTAL control of my life, i spent time knowing new people, making friends for life, getting to know myself.... it was a time when i HAD the time to search inside, and look what i wanted.... Did i want to stay up all night eating chocolate and watching old movies? of course I could... i didnt ve to wake up to go to work, i didnt need to do anything to survive....

A time, that everyone needs.... cause after you are done with University, then Reality hits you and you wont ve the time to know yourself, cause life aint givin you the chance anymore......

Anyway.... i guess i just miss England.... all this rain, has made me remembered how it was to actually miss the sun.... and with that memory all the other flew by without permission.....

Anyway, if anyone reads this, and is still at uni, my only advice is to enjoy it! cause sooner than you think, you ll be waking up changing diapers :)