As i do that, i start to understand how lost i am. How i ve been living in another dimension, how much i miss looking at the small picture...well... kinda...
When you open your eyes and you realize that the country you have been living in for almost 15 years (or is it more?) , is not the country you thought it was, then reality hits you hard, real hard and you realize your just as snob as your neighbord, you, the one who thought who was humble , are not.
The country i lived in, the city i inhabited , the places i have been are not much different to the place i come from, in regards to housing, technology and cars, however, the real country, the one in the big picture is the opposite...while my teenage sister is busy getting the latest smartphone (BB), others teenagers of her same age are worried about how they are going to raise their children. While i was in university, thousand and thousand of miles away, and was worried about which clothes to wear, the people of my age, the ones in the big pictures, where dealing with money problems, and children, and men..... and me....i lived in a bubble.....
Now i am getting married, and obviously the protocol of my society demands a wedding, with all the decors and the right church...but..... do i really need to spend all that money??? when in the same city i live, in the parts i had never been till the beginning of this week, there are people living under iron roofs and who do not know what they will be eating next.....
A supermarket? no, the ones i have always visited are only for the hundreds of thousand of people of the city, how about the others? where have i lived all this while???? is true, i was here, only km away...however it feels as if i was thougsand of km away.......
I dont want to raise my children oblivious of what their society, its a mistake...cause when they see the big picture, and they are old, they will want to look away....cause it hurts so much, the ignorance i had....
just random thoughts...
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