when did i ever do the most sensible thing?

it has been over a year already....and you are right, my life is a mess without u... nothing seems to fit anywhere, and im like a ghost, living day to day, waiting for it to end...just to get some sleep and find a kind of peace...which i hardly find...

i miss you, i miss being part of something worthwhile... of waking up and find myself trapped by your arms....i miss your burps, my cooking..my laughs and smiles....most of all i miss feeling whole...

and i know you are right.I definetly know i am wrong...very..very...extremely wrong..and i know going back to you would make my life better and hopefully i would find happiness again...and that such decision would be the most reasonable thing to do...but babe...you know me extremely well.. when did i ever do the most sensible thing? NEVER

i tend to go against the flow...i tend to find new ways of hurting myself and putting myself down...somehow i believe happiness wasnt meant to last for me...

and maybe is just normal to feel like i miss you....i did gave you my all and i did share my life with you for far too long....

so please, try and forget me, cause aint good for you and i cant be your friend.....

i will always love you...cause u ll be forever the keeper of my heart.