enough

i have given up utterly, completely in finding the other person. I came to the conclusion that some ppl are just not meant to find it, and that our soulmates are our friends... and im fine with that, im not upset or anything. i just stopped.

Enough.

Is not bad being single, im loving it, and i dont like seeing ppl breaking up only to confirm me that love is just as fragile as any crystal glass.... so instead of living inmy own fairytale world, waiting for prince charming, i ll no longer wait, i ll just live.

I guess i lost hope long time ago, but now is when i actually accept it... so thats it for me, had enough, cant handle anymore.

down down down

My body is aching... my lungs are cleaning themselves, my mind has its goals straight...but my soul...my soul just would not catch up...

I find myself trapped, in a vicious cycle, the cycle of the day of im feeling great, im single and fabulous, the next day im single and fabulous but cant seem to understand whats wrong with me why cant i find a decent guy, and the day i feel like shit, like i ll be an old lady, alone...and the cycle keeps repeating itself...

I like being single, but i want to feel inlove 2.... ufffy...... not a good day 2day.... i ll blame it on the nicote withdrawls symptoms....